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Angst

Fair is it that you are not in my arms?
Fair is it that my lips ache for yours?
Fair is it that my hands want to touch you, hold you, hug you,
Just for a while...
Is It Fair?

What good are words when nothing describes how badly I need you,
What good is the sun if its beauty can't compare to yours,
What good are the days when each moment you are so far from me,
What good is life, when you are not in it...
What good is it?

Angry? ... No

Hatred? ... No

Why?

..... Hope.....

Go Kyle... ItS your Bday....

You know how the song goes.... anyway.... My Bday?? 18??? Cool... Started off at 12am... My Sayang called me.... Aww My GAwd... I Love Her So Much!! Slept soon after.. only to be awaken by Wynton.... We Had a Mamak Session at 1 till 2.30 am.... thanks Wyn,Shermund, and Marcus... the next day went to school.... have my class knew it was Bday.. so it was cool... went back... nothing much happen ler that day... my sisters were very nice to me they bought a cake for me.... Dad gave me Ang Pow... Mummy Called Me from Germany.... then it was boring but My Sayang kept me company most of the time.... THANK YOU SAYANG!!! then at tnight had a super mamak session.... about 13 over people came.... Deirdre came... havent seen her in a while.... Mindy came... i got scolding from her mum i think for keeping her too late.... OoopPpss... Cut cake.. paid and went back... Thanks All Of You for coming.... Love Ya'll... it may not have been super party or even a party.... but just being with friends is all ill ever need....

I Miss you so much my Sayang... i wish you were there to celebrate my Bday with me... youre the only one i want by my side now and for all the days to come.... LOVE YOU!!!

My Bday Wish was thAt You Will come down Soon and Decide to stay for good and for me to Love you forever and vice versa...

Wishing.... Aunty Veronica and My Sayang's Grandma.. Aunty Clarisse (Is that how you spell her name?) A Happy Birthday today... gO gO gO..

Party pictures will come soon... promise... but i feel so bad cause no pictures so here is one ugly one of me....

PeAce

Wild Party

Man.... I got so drunk!!! i mean the party was awesome.... most of things i cant remember.... but yeah it was cool!!!!!! i mizzz my Sayang so much that night... used up all my credit to tell her how much i love her.... how i wish she was there at the party.... anyway... the party be chillin.... food was ok... too little food... loads of drinks.... wish there was more.... loads of people.... hey i got wished as well... funnny seeing as that it wasnt my party... it was Kevin's Bday and Jeremy's Suprise Farewell.... so it was pretty cool lar....

Few things I was Reminded of the NEXT Morning....

1. You Were GONE!!!
2. You Asked The Father... Who The Fuck He Was??
3. Slided Down The Stairs HEAD FIRST
4. Banged into The Bathroom Door
5. Broke The Shower Curtain
6. Had Drinks and Sang Songs With The Father
7. Licked Douglas Toe and Kissed Loads of People
8. Called the Mother by A Different name
9. Couldnt Stop Talking About "My Sayang"
10. Dont Ever Do it Again!!!! (Yeah Right!!)
    

Few Thing NOT to do....

1. Drink Too Much
2. Mix Liqour and Beer (KICKS ASS!!) but DONT!!
3. Slide Down The Stairs Head First
4. Slide Down The Stairs At All
5. F*Cking Swear!!! Ecspecially to the Host Parents!!!
   
6. Lick Other Peoples Toes
   
7. Let Anyone Change Your Shirt
   
8. Ever Let MARCUS or WYNTON mix your Drinks
9. Walk to the Bathroom Unattended to
10. Last But Not Least.... Not Have FUN!!!

Anyway.... the next morning... Kev's Mom bought for us some Wan Ton Mee and we all had some... talking about what happen last night.... Laughing our heads off.... planning our next party... then it ended.... i went back home... slept a while.... My Sayang called me... then We all went Swimming... Kev,Marcus,Khirun,Ashok,Ben, and Me.... then late at night... at about 12am we played Futsal till 2.... How Cool is that.....

It Was Fun.... My Birthday Coming Soon.... Tomorrow Actualy.. *Ahem Ahem* So Watch Out For That...

PS- Sayang.... I Miss You SO SO SO Much.... LovE you!!!!

She's GONE !!!

I havent wirtten anything since i have seen her.... Diana..... My Love...

She is gone... she left Malaysia at 9.20am on the 23rd of September to sunny Australia..... she left behind family, old firends, and new friends.... but most of all... she left a broken man.... she left me... although i know she will come back.... when??? my heart still beats for her... and her only.... this loniliness which cant be replaced....

The month has been great..... Most of my time with her.... Not a moment forgotten.... Not a memory lost.... My greatest love.... I walk around the house today still smelling her scent... how?? i got no idea.... I wake up wanting to hear her voice and i sleep wanting to hug and kiss her.... but... what can i do....

She was perfect.... no one ever has been.... but SHE WAS!!!.... how??? its just the way she teases me... the way she touches me... the way she holds me... the she laughs... the way she kisses me... the way she hugs me... *sob sob* i cant get enough....

I have asked God many times to fall ove and hoping that that girl will fall deeply in love with me.... It happened.... but this way??? She had to leave??? Funny??? NOOOoooooOooo..

If i had one wish is that she comes back into my life never leaves and always be mine.... too much to ask??? maybe.... but is it wrong to think about what you want for a sec.???

Sayang,
If you are somewhere out there reading this.,... i miss you so so so much... come back when you can.... i love you so much.... will never change the way i feel..... take care of yourself.... wish i could hug and kiss you right now.... and every moment you are away.... xoxoxoxo....... Love Forever...

Pictures of The Moments We Shared...

Everything SuXx at dA moment

Havent worte in ages... but at the moment life sucks... seriously... Love and Life.... they just irratate me and at the moment im lost and sucked in to this hole of loneliness... Is it true thats women only love men who have cars... or prefer men who have cars??? i dont know it seems as though it is so.... anywayz... the past 3 days ive been playing futsal and im loving it... got an even next monday and i hope it works out well... anywayz.. anyone interested in playing Futsal can do so at the new place which is in Happy Gardens.. its bound to open soon... so go there and spend your money... Me as your recommendor... i applied for the job there and hope i can get it... help my mom out in some financial problems.. but lets see...

When One Door Closes... Another Door Opens

anywayz... school is per normal.... and its looking kinda dull... maybe because im not focused enough.. gottta get through it this week... i still havent seen DIANA... where are you huh?? peace

End of Holidays..

Last few days of holidays and what exiciting *sarcastic* days ive had.... Lets see...

Monday.. Boring...

Tuesday... Boring.. Then later in the evening Douglas came and we played Ping-Pong.. i won... but then he trashed me in snooker badly... i must beat him soon... Or Else...

Wednesday... 2 of my school friends came over to the house.... had to take a bus into town just to bring them here... then ate like pigs... they left... boring.. then ate like a pig again... went to the pasar malam cause of Mindy and her "Im Bored" phase... but it was cool.. haven't gone to a pasar malam in ages.. bought 2 CD's.. Michael Buble and Some cheap Rap & Hip Hop album... Sent her back and slept like a dog... *Sorry for the uses of animal names*

Thursday... Boring..

Friday... Half of the day and its really boring...

All of these days... and nothing except for my daily morning swims.. TV.. Sleep.. Eat.. Study.. and computer most of the time.... but how can one not do all those things... damn... hope the weekend is better.... peace